19 July
看着原本同步的朋友离我远去，突然觉得好无助，好像离开。
说好一起的，却在别人帮助下完成了。
或许是嫉妒她有人帮忙？我也不知道。
I walked to Block A to pass up the assignment.
Every step i walked, i just felt like everything is going to end here.
Disappointment? Sadness? Feels abandoned by friend? Mixed. I don't know.
When i walked in, i was surprised that there are not just Sharon & Ah Kai.
I walked to them and settle out the assignments.
I was tired. I felt lost.
I passed the Java assignment to Ah Kai. I go upstairs to submit ADIS assignment.
When the lift door closed, I felt that my tears just want to come out.

After I've submitted the assignment, i walked back to my hostel.
On the way home, i saw them again.
Once i reached my hostel room, i can't control my tears.
I packed all my things and walk to bus station.
On the way to bus station, i saw a lot of people standing near the CD shop.
At first i didn't realized there's something happened until i saw my friend, Bang Liang
I was trying to say hi and just walk away but i saw him looking at somewhere else.
I followed his sight and i saw a kitty lying on the floor. It was injured.
The guard walked and stood beside the kitty and try to protect the kitty from crashing by another car.
I was standing there and considering should i save it or just left it.
I asked Bang Liang, he seems like thinking also.
I've think of walking away but it just hard to take one step forward and my heart felt pain when I'm thinking of going away without bothering the kitty .
Finally I decide to walk towards the kitty and look clearly to the condition.
I've try to recall what I've learn for first aid when I was a scout in secondary school.
But what i think just take it to the doctor.
I gt a cardboard from the stationery shop near by.
I moved the kitty and put it on the cardboard with a boy and took it to find doctor.
Three of us include Bang Liang went to block.
On the way to Block, i was trying to let the kitty to stay awake.
Suddenly it's not responding, my heart skipped a beat and my tears went down.
I was scared that it just left us like this.
Fortunately it responds.
When we reach the shop and knew they didn't provide medical service but the kind man actually draw a map for us. Appreciate it.
We followed the map and found the clinic but damn it!
All went for lunch! There's no one who stand by for emergency!
Disappointed!
At last we decided to go all the way to Ipoh, to the clinic that i went before with my hamsters.
On the way to Ipoh, i try my best to talk to kitty, wake it up from sleeping but it's getting weaker and weaker.
Although just around1 hour but i felt that it took a century of time for us to reach the clinic and i began to feel uncomfortable as i haven't gt my breakfast.
Finally we reached. but the doctor told us that the percentage of saving the kitty is low.
The doctor actually decide to let it go so that it won't suffer anymore.
I was considering whether to let it go or not. I doesn't wish it suffer but i just hard to let it go.
Suddenly the boy stand beside me asked, "Isn't there any hope?"
I looked at the kitty, it has tried its best to stay awake and came all the way to Ipoh with us,  why do we give up from saving it?
We decide to try. Try to save this little poor thing. I believed that it'll be alright.
They called us to go back home and wait for their call.
They fetched me back to my house and they went back to Kampar.
I was waiting the call from the clinic and i received call from Bang Liang.
The kitty, left us and went to the heaven.

 What if I didn't took too long time to consider?
What if the clinic has a doctor to stand by for emergency?
Yea, what if.
Once again I knew there's no what if in this world.
Once a thing happened, it has no way to return or go back to the past.
Time is gold. It helps us sometimes. However, it does take away someone from us.
Kitty, may you rest in peace.
Maybe you'll choose to stay in heaven but what if you choose to come back to this mother earth,
will we meet again somewhere else?