Wednesday, September 18, 2013

啊啊,最近被许多莫名的情绪困扰着
好朋友也被我烦到不好意思再烦了
那该死的情绪,时高时低,
啊,都因为他啊。
之前说是会控制,有没有都无所谓
但似乎有点挑战性。
能怎么办?
继续埋在心底吧。
或者,把自己的期待,编写成故事,
不错的主意,对吧?
那样的情绪,真的不希望再来。
我还不确定是否能把它锁在安全区,不被放出。
听起来,好像很恐怖啊,哈哈

多几天就开学了,回到学业上,要加把劲了。
原本有的自信,再被成绩打败后,要把它找回来!
祝我好运吧!

放假开始追了几套连续剧,
终极一班3,就是要你爱上我,Who Are You,
之后在我的脸书被网友们不停的刷关于<主君的太阳>,
好奇心驱逐下,开始追这套连续剧。
现在仍然是连载中,
看了后也中毒了,完全变成这套连续剧的粉丝。
虽然前面有点吓人,但后面完全可爱啊!
尤其是苏志燮大叔那成熟却偶尔有幼稚表现的男人,大爱啊!
还有孔孝真onni那花痴的表情,还有她那笑起来,太阳一般的笑容,迷人啊!
主君替太恭实挡下了那攻击而太恭实竟然看到了主君的灵魂,
还有还有,主君消失前的告白,虐!!!
编剧大人,虐后记得大甜啊!!!不然绕不过你 = =+
《主君的太阳》OST - TOUCH LOVE, nomu nomu chuwa <3 br="" nbsp="">

Saturday, July 20, 2013

19 July
看着原本同步的朋友离我远去,突然觉得好无助,好像离开。
说好一起的,却在别人帮助下完成了。
或许是嫉妒她有人帮忙?我也不知道。
I walked to Block A to pass up the assignment.
Every step i walked, i just felt like everything is going to end here.
Disappointment? Sadness? Feels abandoned by friend? Mixed. I don't know.
When i walked in, i was surprised that there are not just Sharon & Ah Kai.
I walked to them and settle out the assignments.
I was tired. I felt lost.
I passed the Java assignment to Ah Kai. I go upstairs to submit ADIS assignment.
When the lift door closed, I felt that my tears just want to come out.

After I've submitted the assignment, i walked back to my hostel.
On the way home, i saw them again.
Once i reached my hostel room, i can't control my tears.
I packed all my things and walk to bus station.
On the way to bus station, i saw a lot of people standing near the CD shop.
At first i didn't realized there's something happened until i saw my friend, Bang Liang
I was trying to say hi and just walk away but i saw him looking at somewhere else.
I followed his sight and i saw a kitty lying on the floor. It was injured.
The guard walked and stood beside the kitty and try to protect the kitty from crashing by another car.
I was standing there and considering should i save it or just left it.
I asked Bang Liang, he seems like thinking also.
I've think of walking away but it just hard to take one step forward and my heart felt pain when I'm thinking of going away without bothering the kitty .
Finally I decide to walk towards the kitty and look clearly to the condition.
I've try to recall what I've learn for first aid when I was a scout in secondary school.
But what i think just take it to the doctor.
I gt a cardboard from the stationery shop near by.
I moved the kitty and put it on the cardboard with a boy and took it to find doctor.
Three of us include Bang Liang went to block.
On the way to Block, i was trying to let the kitty to stay awake.
Suddenly it's not responding, my heart skipped a beat and my tears went down.
I was scared that it just left us like this.
Fortunately it responds.
When we reach the shop and knew they didn't provide medical service but the kind man actually draw a map for us. Appreciate it.
We followed the map and found the clinic but damn it!
All went for lunch! There's no one who stand by for emergency!
Disappointed!
At last we decided to go all the way to Ipoh, to the clinic that i went before with my hamsters.
On the way to Ipoh, i try my best to talk to kitty, wake it up from sleeping but it's getting weaker and weaker.
Although just around1 hour but i felt that it took a century of time for us to reach the clinic and i began to feel uncomfortable as i haven't gt my breakfast.
Finally we reached. but the doctor told us that the percentage of saving the kitty is low.
The doctor actually decide to let it go so that it won't suffer anymore.
I was considering whether to let it go or not. I doesn't wish it suffer but i just hard to let it go.
Suddenly the boy stand beside me asked, "Isn't there any hope?"
I looked at the kitty, it has tried its best to stay awake and came all the way to Ipoh with us,  why do we give up from saving it?
We decide to try. Try to save this little poor thing. I believed that it'll be alright.
They called us to go back home and wait for their call.
They fetched me back to my house and they went back to Kampar.
I was waiting the call from the clinic and i received call from Bang Liang.
The kitty, left us and went to the heaven.

 What if I didn't took too long time to consider?
What if the clinic has a doctor to stand by for emergency?
Yea, what if.
Once again I knew there's no what if in this world.
Once a thing happened, it has no way to return or go back to the past.
Time is gold. It helps us sometimes. However, it does take away someone from us.
Kitty, may you rest in peace.
Maybe you'll choose to stay in heaven but what if you choose to come back to this mother earth,
will we meet again somewhere else?


Wednesday, June 26, 2013

6月21日-23日
对我来说,意义非凡,就算只是贡献那么一点,有时甚至帮不到什么
但对我来说,真的是很特别的回忆
第一次参加比赛。
平时我总是在练习时退缩,
这一次我撑到了比赛结束的那一刻,
给自己鼓励的掌声!

20 JUNE 2013
食堂集合,出发去吉打。
中途在R&R吃晚餐
过了N小时,到达了目的地后,拿了行李,前往我们的宿舍。
类似乡村小路,走到一半,前面的人停下了
过后有人说"Sir, we're lost!"
O.O
过后才知道原来宿舍在不远处。
老实说,那宿舍给我的感觉,就像haunted house!
进去后,最基本的打扫,整理行李,开会,冲凉,睡觉。
那一天,就这样过了。

21 JUNE 2013
正式的第一天。
一大清早被Leader吵醒,
啊~!真的好想继续睡啊!
准备好后,走出宿舍,寻找早餐的踪影,
可惜,没有餐厅在这时候营业,
原本以为要空肚上场,
幸好CYin有准备饼干!Fulfill 了肚子的要求 xD
过后就直接去到了比赛现场,
做完热身,比赛开始前拍张照。:D
照片来源:TzeKhin's Facebook xD 
右起是C- Ah Yan @ WD- Zi Jun @ WA- CYin @ GK- Sunny @ GA- Jasp @ GS- Leader @ JingYi @ GD- Me!

8点的比赛。
在第一场结束后,成绩没那么理想。
被人压着打,不懂为什么,
他们跟我讲的策略,我明白,
但却好像没有实践到一样,帮不到什么。
看着他们为队伍努力的争取分数,我却没能做到什么。
有点自责。

结束了第一场比赛,就去volleyball场观赛。
其实他们打得很不错!
过后一起回宿舍冲凉,出去吃午餐,然后回宿舍休息。
储蓄能量给下一场比赛。

4点的比赛。
Sunny的老妈出来支持Sunny.
炎热的地板真的快烫伤了屁股!
在这一场比赛, TARC Penang Branch 的netball coach来到,
解答了之前的疑问,做了我们暂时的教练。
过后比赛开始。Ermmm, 风水轮流转?
这次我们站上风了。
比赛结束后,我们以22比0获胜。
但出现了小插曲,导致Sunny 变成了HKM!
永远的回忆阿!哈哈哈哈哈哈
照片来源:TzeKhin's Facebook xD 
胜利的跳跃!

照片来源:TzeKhin's Facebook xD 
与Mr.Hee & Photographer-TzeKhin的合照!
SMILE!!:D

带着胜利的心情去支持Volleyball team.
这一场,他们同样得到了胜利!Congratz!!
或许是因为胜利,心情也特别得开心!
那天的晚餐,去到了北海,享受美食,在CYin的带领与介绍下!xD
食物都很不错吃!
回宿舍,结束了当天的活动。

22 JUNE 2013
最后一场比赛。
早上8点。
去到了比赛的地点。
比赛开始。
这一次,全部都尽全力地去打。
但看着他们那么努力,我却好像帮不到什么。
甚至有队员,脚痛到躺在地上。
他们真的尽力了,那我呢?到底帮到什么。
他们忍痛上场,就为了能尽力为team争取分数。
我似乎帮不到什么。
那一场比赛,虽然破蛋了,但还是输了。
拍照留念后,去到了羽球场看比赛。
看完比赛后准备回去,在门外呆了一下,
却在这个时候犯下了错。
明知道比赛输了的感觉,却没发现自己的言语,正伤害着别人。
赶紧转移话题,离开现场。
对不起,想对那女生说,但却没说出口。
走回宿舍的路途,不得不继续想为什么那么笨,
没发觉到别人的提醒。
冲凉后还是冲不走那伤害了别人,那种不安的心情
忘记了谁开口说笑,才把我拉回了现实

晚上,我们到了Queensbay Mall, Penang.
吃了晚餐,逛了一下,
还跟Monsters 拍照! 在回去的路程中,不停的谈天
那感觉像是参加了班上的郊游活动!真的很开心!
回到宿舍,没有去睡觉,反倒是跟JingYi去了斜对面的房间跟Sunny, Ah Yan, CYin & Zi Jun聊天
高谈了HKM的话题,
最后一晚了,在未来,是否有同样的机会,同在一个房间里谈天?
没人会知道,所以就享受当下吧!
中途,有男生敲门说要表演,哈哈,肯定是玩游戏输了!xD
Ermmm, 勇气可嘉!给你们个Like!xD
之后看着他们一个个得爬上床后才带着不舍的心情回房间睡觉。
真的要结束了,突然感觉很不舍呢。

23 JUNE 2013
一大早醒来,收拾行李,吃了早餐,去看羽球比赛,
过后去了讲堂坐坐,等羽球选手回去收拾行李。
踏上了回金宝的路程。
路途中累到睡着了,但却感觉脖子块断了。炎热的天气,睡到汗流浃背。
中途吃了午餐。
回到了金宝,拿了行李,头也不回的走了出去。
是时候,回到了原本的世界。
这几天又经历的一切,永远记在心中。

谢谢你们,给了我机会去体验不一样的东西。
谢谢每一个教导我的人。
衷心的感谢!

Friday, June 7, 2013

不曾想过别人的感想,
只是想着自己,
自私。

思想不够成熟,
幼稚。

到底什么时候才能大方一点?
不转牛角尖?
成熟一点,
不再讲出幼稚的话?

可是,有时候,
我真的不想一个人。
一个人的感觉很恐怖,
总是会想太多,拉低自己的情绪。
不好受。

总是希望能每天都和朋友一起。
可是,
每个人都有属于自己的空间,
有着你没有的朋友,
别人的生活不一定要围绕着你转动。

有些事情,怎样都羡慕不来。

Wednesday, June 5, 2013


photo edited by my brother.
it's fun to see you with many kind of weird 'sleeping style'.


Yea, i lost you.
I've 48 hours but I'm not able to save you. Imma failure.
I hold you in my hand, you didn't try to escape, just lying on my hand quietly.
I told myself that's all right, you'll be okay.
Yea, I lied to myself.
What if i pay more attention on you,
What if i went back home one day earlier,
What if i went out to buy drinks,
What if i didn't take a nap,
What if i realize you're not active like before,
Cry doesn't bring you back.
That night, i stayed with you in the living room.
That was the first time i saw you lying there doing nothing, seems very tired, doesn't want to do anything.

The next day morning,
i heard my mum, took away the case beside me,
it seems like you're leaving me.
i heard my mum. she said you seems not moving anymore.
although she called you many times, there was no response from you.
i woke up, opened the case, touched you.
It just felt like touching a stone with fur.
i lost control, keep trying to wake you up.
I failed.
How silly am i? I knew that you need someone to keep you warm.
But i still put you back into the case.
i left you alone.
i hate people left me alone but i done this to you.

Mum dig a hole nearby the gate, for you.
i bring you out, hold you in my hands.
Wishing to wake you up.
Again i failed to do so.

I'm sorry. Really sorry.
I miss you. Really really miss you.
What i wish doesn't come true.

I put you into the hole. Cover you with soil and tears.
I'll never forget.

Although it just a few months,
I'm glad to have you as a part of my life.

Kiki, may you rest in peace.


Saturday, May 25, 2013

我没有与你交流过,但几乎每次找素仪时都会看到你陪伴在他的身边,是很要好的朋友吧?
得知你去世的消息,真的很惊讶,
不可能,但却是现实。
是什么原因把你带走,我实在不敢问素仪,看着她不断更新的状态,
除了心疼还是心疼,安慰的话也不懂怎么说。
那样的伤感,远远超出我能体会到的。。
该怎么安慰她们好。。?

虽然最后一次见你,是几个月前,但总觉得好像昨天才见过你。

现实像梦境一般,但梦却又那么的真实。

死神把你带离了这个世界,真心希望你在另一个世界也能过得很好。
R.I.P

Thursday, May 23, 2013

子萱啊,不是说要振作吗?
一点小事就让你心情低落,以后怎么办?
没人能陪你走到最后,
能不能走到终点,能靠的只有自己。
路程中是开心的,难过的,生气的,失落的。。
这才叫人生不是吗?
有起有落。
开心的,伤心地,失落的,
怎样的路程,掌控权在你自己手中不是吗?

可是不懂为什么,这次,特别特别特别的失落
还有下次不是吗?可是真的有下次?

微笑着去面对吧!微笑能带来好心情 : )

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

当朋友讲着你无法参与的话题,心中的担忧就会渐渐地浮现。
是太敏感吗?或许是不想被冷落。
试着戴上耳机,不去聆听旁人的对话,是否就能减少心中被冷落的感觉,
逃避必须面对的一切?
再一次回来,似乎连身边的人也不认识了。
似乎遇不见熟悉的朋友,
陌生的面孔,恐惧渐渐地涌上心头,是否会因此而拖格了?
其实,每个人都有一个空间,自由的选择去跟谁交谈,
不要把别人围绕在你身边当作是理所当然,
也不要因为别人忽略你而感到很委屈。
人,生活在这世界上,一定要有朋友,
但并不是说,朋友必须24小时陪伴着你,
试着独立,不要没有朋友在身边,就一副天塌下来的样子。
不是说微笑能带来好心情吗?
微笑着去面对一切吧!或许能驱走不好的心情, smile :)